Good Day Sunshine

Okay bear with me here, cause I don't necessarily think of myself as negative, though I'll give you cynical. I am what I am. Being that it's a Monday, and I hate Mondays, and seeing that I'm feeling especially optimistic and bright, it's a little off-putting. I'm trying to take advantage though.

I made quite the declaration at the beginning of this fine year and I'm trying to stick with it. There has been a time or two, when yes I got a little mired down in the muckity-muck, but I've done my best to shake it off and get back to the bright and shiny outlook. Well getting off my ass may not seem like much of an accomplishment, but believe me it is. I GOT OFF MY ASS! YEAH ME!

Okay a little explanation is in order. For, well almost two years now, I've had this love/hate idea with going to grad school. I've pretty much hated this job since I started it 6 years ago and haven't had much luck in locating another. Well then it became clear that I really had no interest in continuing with this line of work and one thing led to another and I came up with grad school. In order to get accepted to grad school, any grad school, I of course have to take the GRE. I've been putting off the GRE for a little over a year now. I suck at math and my "practice score" scared the hell out of me to the point that I've been petrified to take the damn thing.

I didn't relish the idea of my big, fat failure staring me in the face, so I've taken up residence in the "avoidance stage" of my psyche for quite some time now. I talking to the point where I bought a cottage and started renovations, point of avoidance. Well I think I just evicted myself from avoidance-ville. On April 5, at 12:00 pm EST, I will be taking the GRE. I finally decided that even if I failed (and as much as I HATE to fail at anything) that I just needed to do it and get it over with. If I completely bomb the damn thing then I'll just take it again (up to 5 times, once a month, until 2007 if need be). So for the next week and a half I'm going to be cramming my ass off! Wish me luck.